watsonshoneybee:

and you know what else? You know what? They’re going to be so fucked up still when they’re together finally and it’s fucking me up and when John finally proposes because you know he will Sherlock is going to look at him and say, it’s okay, I understand, you don’t have to, and John is going to look at him in horror as he realizes that even after all this time Sherlock still doesn’t get it, he still doesn’t understand that he’s not second choice, that he’s not the remainder that John picked up when he was denied the family promised by Mary and the baby when Mary turned out to be what/who she was, and John is going to drop the ring box right then and there and pull Sherlock into his arms and say, no, no, Sherlock, how can you not understand that I need you, I need you to live, I need you more than anything I have ever needed in my life and they’re going to cry and kiss each other through their tears and promise each other the day and the night and the moon and the stars and John will pick the ring back up and ask please, please, please, I need to know you’re with me forever, and Sherlock will nod shakily because he won’t trust his voice and John will slip the ring onto his finger and press his lips to it and then to each of Sherlock’s knuckles in turn and whisper I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry you didn’t know, do you know now, do you understand?